IJSP Number 1, 2019

63 of the three rapes and the age of “her child”, her half-brother David she adores and she takes care of together with her boyfriend Cristi and sees as her own child and cannot live without. As for me the number 2 represent the number of years I have been married, as well as the period in time that had to pass between me obtaining the first degree in education, which is also the moment I applied to get the second degree and the moment I obtained it. I applied for my second degree in 2013, and after all the inspections and all the written exams I obtained my second degree in 2015, which represents the shortest amount of time in which a person may obtain this degree. However, for me, the most important significance for the number two is represented by the age of my “child” - My Individual Psychological Cabinet, which fulfills me a lot from a professional point of view and which I see as a result of my work and perseverance from the moment I finished college and it represents for me one of the things that, as my client puts it, “I could not live without”. Another strong resemblance between me and this teenage girl is the fact that A.G.F. would “fight”, if necessary, from a legal point of view (in court) with her mother in order to continue to take care of her brother David, while I continue to “fight” me on a mental level. Here are taking place some very intense fights, because I do not want to give up my child, the cabinet, in the case in which in my real life a real baby would appear as I am aware of the fact that in this case I would need to put my work at the cabinet on a secondary level. The resemblance is explained through the use of a “fight” for a certain “child” and also the need to have a very strong contact with this “child” on a daily basis and the inability to give it up. Interesting to mention in this context is the fact that A.G.F. frequently allows her mother to be one of her aggressor (because in this way she obtains David, wins time and develops her relationship with him) and I allow my workplace to be my aggressor through the high amount of work I do and through the difficult cases, because I get the benefit of professional and personal growth, which helps me a lot in the practice with the clients I meet in my personal cabinet. My identification with this client continues with our inability to take a position, to react against our aggressors, the abusers in our life. The girl did not do anything neither after the first, nor after the second rape, when she clearly knew the culprit. She did not try to make him pay legally for his crime, and now when she faces with her parents, these constant aggressors in her life and she is aware of, she cannot establish, she cannot impose any limits in order to try and stop their emotional assault. On the other hand, I continue this attack on my own person, I offer my interior aggressor unlimited power because I do not want and am unable to change my standards and I do not try to change the pattern. But mainly because I do not take responsibility once and for all regarding the prioritization of the three most important aspects in my life: the work I do at