IJSP Number 1, 2019

62 powerful effect over me for the next couple of days and it confirmed my belief that this case needed to be supervised as soon as possible. I immediately realized that it was not about the fact that I didn’t feel qualified enough from a professional point of view and I realized that it had to do with something I was not aware of, and this thing had to be brought up into the light. The impediment had to be exposed also because the case itself was extremely complex and required the work with a severe trauma, caused by the three rapes the girl went through over the course of four years. Bringing the case into supervision and analyzing my reactions, emotions and thoughts with great care I was able, with the help of the supervisor, to get many answers to the question mentioned above, answers that I will continue to present further in this paper. The first insight I had regarding this case started with the reason why A.G.F. sought out specialized help, the three rapes she was a victim to, which left deep scars not only at an emotional level, but also over her whole personality. The insight I had is about the fact that I couldn’t empathize with the client’s problem, the sexual abuses because it would require me to become aware of the following fact: that I myself am at the present moment the victim of three “rapes”. The big difference being that in my case I myself am the aggressor. I call them “rapes” because at an emotional level they exercise a great deal of pressure over me; they occupy a large portion of my time and generate a huge quantity of stress. These three rapes are represented by: the high school I work with the teenager every day, work that although manages to charge me with positive energy because of the results of my work, it overexerts me from a physical point of view due to the increased workload; the personal office where I consume a large quantity of energy because I want to bring it to a very high level and last but not least the Formation in Integrative Psychotherapy, because of the demands I have from myself (the dissertation paper, the theoretic exam, the practical exam, etc.) and the standards I impose are totally unrealistic. All of these lead to a physical as well as psychological exhaustion. Another revealing insight I had when I looked into the significance of the number 3 and the significance of the number 2, both for me and for my client. As far as my client is concerned 3 represents the exact number of sexual abuses she has been subjected at three different time moments (12, 14 and 16 years old), and also the number of the aggressors (the young boy at the party, Emil - Gelu’s brother and the man with a hood). As far as I am concerned, at the present moment, at the beginning of this school year I turned three years at this educational unit, three years in which I aggrieve myself through the huge workload (a very large number of cases and many hours of school counseling) I impose on myself as a school counselor. Analyzing the importance of the number 2, when it comes to my client the number has two important meanings: the first is the number of years between each