IJSP Number 2, 2020

85 difference came from and where there was a change in my way of seeing things. And everything seemed to be linked to the therapeutic relationship. So many months of my basic training have been misunderstood. I felt what I did not feel anymore, I was crying uncontrollably, I was mirroring without thinking, I was planning so that everyone seemed to me, and everything that was going on around me was incomprehensible to me. It is only now that I explain why the personal therapy helped me more than the group therapy. While writing these lines, I realize how fondly I think of my colleagues, whom my friends consider to have taught me how to let me be present with all my being in every module, session I attended. And then I will talk about my experience that I have integrated during my basic training both in the training group, in the supervision group and in my personal therapy. Every day of personal therapy was a day when I got closer to myself, a day in which I integrated parts of myself that I did not realize I had. I had a personal therapist in key moments of my life, and this made sense to my life and prepared me in a novel way to translate these periods of conscious crisis. I understand very well what it means to have a personal therapist who will lead you to the core of the issue, to help you understand the issue, and to find the solutions. I had to stay in touch with me and my therapist. I understood this, later. It was a relationship-based approach. When my therapist said that we do not need to talk, we can just sit and feel in contact, I was wondering, what does she want from me? Physically, what I felt was a pleasant general heat, in contrast to a whole life in which I was constantly cold. However, at one point I interrupted the contact ... because it was too much for me. But I continued to work within training, and in the intercession, wishing to have awareness and experience of contact. Slowly, I came to a therapeutic relationship in which I was able to become aware of my feelings, of the inner child, the activation of the inner child, the fact that I am not alone but have a living part inside, I allowed myself to come into contact with the inner child, I integrated my inner child. 3. CONCLUSIONS I realized that I have two big and wide needs: the need for exploitation and the need for acceptance. All of this happened in my personal therapy in a safety framework created for me. I began to understand level new things that were now relevant. Together with a few theories and a few workplaces, then with my personal therapy I began to understand how pathology works, I could understand what my inner child had heard, what s/he felt and even how to heal his/her fears. I find very interesting that I, who during my life I haven’t been able to establish profound relationships, and that I’ve tried not only to escape, but have